Leila Made to Watch

There is really nothing more humiliating than watching yourself be tortured. I don’t know what it is but when it comes to BDSM, I find myself really feeling humiliated if I see myself…if I don’t see myself, I can really disconnect and accept the punishment – however, when your made to watch – it all somehow becomes more real and it’s impossible to disconnect. Leila in this gallery from Wasteland.com is made to do just that – and I know exactly how she feels. Impossible to disconnect, impossible to go to subspace or that happy place, while she is abused.

I feel for her, again because I know exactly what she is feeling…but no doubt she probably deserved it – and even if not, she is doing right by her owner by accepting his beating. That is what we are for ultimately…we slaves. We are meant to be used and abused, as crazy as it sounds – thats the only time we feel right, and like we’re in our proper place.