Introspection in a BDSM Lifestyle
by Slaveduties
Looking at one’s self introspectively can be a really difficult thing for anybody. Taking a step back and trying to look at yourself with an objective perspective is not only extremely hard, but I think necessary for all of us to do once in a while. Perhaps even moreso for those of us who live 24/7 in a BDSM lifestyle – it’s important to make sure your still on track, and making sure your happy in your circumstances.
It’s good to kind of take inventory of one’s life, and think about making adjustments if need be. Recently a lot of stuff has changed in my life. I’m taking more of an integrated role in Masters work. I’m present on many shoots, I’ve been getting better at working on the computer, as there is always so much to do to maintain the websites and everything. I’ve been working really hard on a new version of slaveduties for you guys, namely the entire community aspect and the forums…it’s all pretty awesome and amazing.
Taking a look at myself, I kinda like what I’m becoming. Don’t get me wrong…I’m still beaten on a daily basis, humiliated to tears, spend hours in bondage…but on top of all that, I find myself a lot more productive and contributing more to our household. That isn’t to take anything away from the house slave, she has her role, just as I do. Master enjoys her in her role, and we both must accept his judgement.
I also find that having to use my brain more is really difficult…but I enjoy the satisfaction when I am done a task on the computer for example, I crawl over to Master, and I can shut off my brain as he invades my throat with his member. I gag, my eyes water, and I can go to that place where I don’t need to think…just linger in the moments of pain and humiliation. It makes me appreciate the time I spend in bondage, my muscles aching – every second feeling like an hour, yet it never feels like it’s long enough. I beg with Master to just leave me in until tomorrow…
It’s teaching me that balance is so important. One makes you appreciate the other so much more. So I’m happy to be becoming more balanced, mainly of course because it’s what Master wants. He is happy that I’m evolving like this, and so ultimately that is what is making me the most happy.
I just wanted to post a quick update to let you all know that some cool things are coming, and life has been good!
Also in response to some comments on my previous post, I’m not ignoring you – I’m going to dedicate a post to talking about some of those points of discussion :)
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I actually posted a forum topic about this once but I still don’t really understand the difference between you and the house slaves roles. So if you ever get a chance to expand on that, that would be great :) and it’s great to hear that things are going so well for you. I always get excited when you post personal entries like this.
It’s so lovely to see you posting again!
The mother side of me worries about you when you don’t post (you seem unsettled and not as happy since your enforced break from the lifestyle), the domme side says you’re busy!
I understand your need for reflection – hard as it is, we all need to do it from time to time.
Hugs xx
Interesting blog keep posting!
Dear slaveduties … I love your blog very much, but I am in wonder why you are posting so little these days … It is almost as if you lost the love for this blog, wich maked me very sad … Are you going to post more sometime?
hi SD, i was just wondering, what did you feel like when you first received your collar from your Master? i know this isn’t the place to ask, but… i’m still asking.
anyway, i hope you’d post again, update us about what you’re doing now. have you been more involved with your Master’s work? please give us an update! i miss reading what you’ve got to say.
When are you going to post again? Problably not the place to ask, but its been 3 months! And i absolutely love reading your blogs
ditto! where are you? I’ve been checking back less and less lately and its making me sad that you seem to have gone missing… This is an amazing blog, i cant tell you what I’ve learned.
Hope you’re doing okay! Drop us a line soon, we miss you!
Where have you been? :( I miss you.
Nice picture!!! ;)
Where are you? :(
Nice blog and nice pictures. Keep posting!
Hello? are you still here?
I was wondering the same thing, starting to wonder if you’re okay, …Miss reading your posts.
slaveduties, we miss you… please come back!
syria
Perfect lights and amazing bondage picture, bravo!