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The Agency

I think I probably masturbated to a fantasy about being a secret spy agent tortured into submission and broken only to be built up in the image of the agency that was to train me – once upon a time…probably before falling asleep in bed. So watching this video…and getting off to a visual representation of that fantasy was…odd, and amazing at the same time!
Of course I got to see the movie in it’s entirety and to be honest, Wasteland.com never ceases to amaze me. The production quality (in full on High Definition I might add) is pretty amazing to behold. Sure it’s not necessarily "reality" – and I do love reality, but suspension of disbelief comes easy when seeing the gorgeous "Nonoshka" forced to electrocute herself, beat herself, pee on herself and masturbate in front of two agents drilling her in multiple languages.

The psychological torment she goes through is obvious. Woken up on a cold cement floor by a bucket of freezing water, her face contorts with the shock of it – and the realization of her predicament. I think I had one orgasm right about there….followed up by many more throughout the whole thing, I’m not ashamed to mention! :)

Anyway, short post today – Master has me busy busy! But definitely check out Wasteland – as this movie and there hundreds of others are absolutely fantastic!

More Lifestyle BDSM Questions Answered

Photo Courtesy of: Wasteland.com

Many of the regular readers have probably read these Q&A posts before, for those that haven’t if your curious here they are:

#1 Questions and Answers

#2 Questions and Answers Continued

As it happens, user “Tristesse” had some more questions, of which I am delighted to answer! The curiosity about my BDSM lifestyle is extremely flattering to me. I was always the quiet kid, and never did seek the spotlight – but this site and it’s amazing community certainly has enabled me to share my story, and more importantly – through the dozens of emails I get a day from the community, has hopefully helped me to help others like me! So without further ado, here’s the questions asked of me by Tristesse

1. Are you still going to be shelved and boxed permanently when you reach 30/when you are no longer deemed useful?

This was honestly a bit far-fetched from the beginning. It was a huge fantasy of mine, and Master was more than happy to oblige and try it, but ultimately it wasn’t realistic and not doable. We have done smaller stints though, in which I am placed in tight confinement for several days at a time. I have a love/hate relationship with it obviously – as since the day I became “lead slave” my mind has once again had to be kind of…reactivated. Between this site, and managing the house slave and all my tasks (and the puppyslave before she left) – I can’t be that mindless being I had once aspired to be.

2. You are allowed to speak again, I presume? If not, how do you do it? How DID you not speak for 9+ months? I’m not sure I could give that up.

Yes I have been allowed to speak again for quite some time now…I can’t remember if I made a post about it back then, I’d have to look it up. Anyway, yes I can speak – and to answer your other questions…it wasn’t very hard to not speak. My mindless slave brain at the time had nothing to say. I was simply a tool to be used and abused, and I was extremely happy – I didn’t miss speaking at all. It wasn’t difficult to start speaking again…I still screamed plenty during my time as a mute, so it’s not like it felt weird to have sound coming out of my mouth – it was weird being able to communicate in a way other than body language though. I think most things I do aren’t for most people – and neither is this probably :)

3. Are your permanent body modifications still on-going? What has been happening in that regard?

Nothing permenant has been done to my body since the branding. Master has thought of a few things, but he is very hesitant to do something so extreme as to wreck a life I might have if ever I do decide to leave his ownership.

4. When did you become sure that your Master is the one you would like to have for life? (This might be a repeat, sorry if it is, but I am struggling with this myself. Sometimes I feel he’s the one I can take it to the 24/7 level with, but sometimes, I’m uncertain…)

I don’t think I have an answer to this question to be honest. Your uncertainty won’t go away anytime soon…when I was bouncing between Masters, I was always uncertain. Only after several months of living as Master’s 24/7 slave did the uncertainty finally fade. You won’t feel certain until you’ve given it a shot for a couple of months…or maybe in your case it’ll be days or weeks. This stuff can vary greatly between people, so there are probably as many answers to this as there are owned slaves.

5.  Is there any age you consider to young to do BDSM play? (after they’ve reached sexual maturity, of course!)

Another hard one to answer…obviously the rule of thumb is – all is good as long as it’s between two consenting adults. That being said, there are people that mature a little fast and a little slow. Someone might be 26 and not mentally mature enough to make good rational life decisions. Or someone might be 21 and extremely mentally mature and very able to make a critical life decision involving BDSM into their life. Ultimately everyone needs to make their own thought out decisions and learn from their mistakes…this applies to lifestyle slaves as well as anyone else :)

6. How did you get rid of your gag reflex? I’m trying to train mine, but it doesn’t seem to be working as well as I hoped it would…

Practice, practice, practice! The big thing is keeping your throat open and keeping it and yourself as relaxed as possible. I still have a gag reflex, if I want it – I can still gag…it still takes the concious thought to keep my throat open when a cock is in it, otherwise I gag with the best of em hehe. Practice on toys as much as you can. Sitting on the computer? Shove something in your throat and just get used to it over long periods of time. Also if you do have a Master, it’s a good idea to have him take an active role in training your throat…

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Property in the Context of BDSM

What is a slave (in the context of BDSM)? Well, the good old dictionary defines “slave” as: “A person who is the property of and wholly subject to another”. I like this definition a lot. It sums me up pretty well, I think. Property is an important word for me, because in essence it defines what I am. I feel very fortunate that one simple word could define me so well. Being the property of another person is a slave’s personal heaven, I would not be happy in fulfilled in life if I were not the property of my Master. I posted this video because when i saw it on Wasteland, I recognized myself and the idea that I am property. I saw this gorgeous slave being fully taken advantage of, with no say in the matter whatsoever…her asshole opened up time and time again by her Master’s cock and the relentless fucking machine…I’ve felt that pain, I’ve felt that horror, and ultimately…that pleasure. The pleasure of being taken over by someone else – fully and completely.

I am wholly subject to another, whom I call call Master. He does with me as he wishes, when he wishes, and I understand full well my position. I am reminded of my position dozens of times every day, with every hardship my body and mind endures my submssion grows further…watching movies like this from Wasteland and other sites, is further reinforcement…it reminds me of what I might look like to an outside observer. It is horrible and glorious. Seeing the utter pain, but likewise the fulfillment…it’s a contradiction in and of itself and honestly I’ve long since stopped trying to figure it out. Why does enslavement fulfill myself and so many others, so? It is a testament to human complexity…the diversity of our sexuality. I’m sure some scientest somewhere poked a brain the right way and has some hypothesis as to why some of us need to be slaves, but in truth, I don’t think I’d want to understand. This morning as Master’s beautifully glorious cock sat on my tongue and his morning piss ran cleanly down my throat – I kneeled there and looked up at him…worshipping him. I felt such happiness, which is rare during his morning drainings – as I very much have disliked drinking his urine in the past – but this morning I was at peace with myself, and my duty.

The slave in the video (and the corresponding picture gallery if you follow me after the break by clicking “more”) is named Sicilia, and she is – like me – a lifestyle slave as well. Not to the Master shown in the video, her real Master enjoys watching her escapades with other Masters on video and so allows her to participate with Wasteland…as many of you probably know my Master is good friends with the folk at Wasteland, hence why I know. She is shipped off to surrender herself to the tortures of another man, while her Master enjoys her efforts and the following video. It’s quite satisfying for me to know these little tidbits…it enhances the viewing experience, knowing full-well her Master watched this very same video, likely with her kneeling next to him watching herself be mercilessly abused. Perhaps servicing him with her mouth under his desk while he watches…knowing full well that he is watching her…what a situation!

If you enjoyed the video, I highly recommend the amazing photography that goes along with it, follow me after the break to check it out! (more…)

Caption Contest! Win a Three Month Subscription!

There is a backstory to this one! Goddess Starla private messaged me this picture, along with a big “LOL” – Turns out she was editing her video for one of her two updates this week, and she stumbled across this. Basically The window shades opened up a little bit allowing some sunlight to come through. The camera was setup to shoot a Point of View tease and denial session, and just so happens his dicklet lined up perfectly with the gap in the window shades – creating what I lovingly call “COCK-SABER”.

So naturally I asked Goddess Starla if I could hold a caption contest for all Slaveduties.com community members! She happily agreed and offered a three month subscription to her website Femdombride.com to the winner! Thank you Goddess Starla!

The contest will be open for 1 week starting today, meaning you’ll be allowed to upload your captions for a week. At that point I will post a poll, and you – the community – will decide which caption is best! The winner will then be given access to their three month subscription. IF you want to donate the subscription to someone else, that’s fine – you’ll just have to contact me and let me know who :)

You can also add whatever you want to the picture – I’ll post my entry (obviously I’m not eligible to win, and I already have access to the site anyway) as an example…and to show off my wicked photoshop skills!

ALSO: If you don’t have Photoshop or the desire to caption the actual image, you can just leave what you would caption in the comments. Just plain text! I will then caption the actual image with your text for you :)

How Do I Add my Caption to the Contest?

I have had to limit the uploads to slaveduties community members only – otherwise we’d get nailed with spam out the wazoo. Registering takes 15 seconds, is completely free (this is and will always remain a free community) and opens up our whole wonderful community to you – so it has it’s benefits aside from this contest :)

Step #1: If your not a slaveduties community member – go register now!

Step#2: GO HERE to the comments section, upload your caption as a comment to this post! (or just leave a text comment and I will add your caption to the image for you)

Step#3: Go do something nice for yourself.

That’s it!

UPDATE: I’m going to let the contest run until the end of the week as I know a few more people would like to submit their captions!

Japanese BDSM at it’s Finest

Oh those crazy Japanese are at it again! If you watch the movie, at around 50 seconds into it – this is the most radical (and somewhat hilarious) sexual position I’ve ever seen! I think even the girl tied up getting fucked giggles a bit and finds it a bit funny…I honestly cracked up watching it – and I just had to post it! The title of this post is not completely tongue in cheek however as the video itself is from ForbiddenEast.com – which I’ve talked about before, because it truly and seriously is such an amazing website. There is stuff on ForbiddenEast.com that the only other place to find it is in some backroom password required dimly lit underground bunker in the back room of a Yakuza club in Tokyo!

I had to post this particular video because it made me laugh, and I thought you all would get a kick out of it as well, but in terms of real true hardcore Shibari bondage, and serious BDSM with a Japanese flair – there simply is nowhere better than ForbiddenEast.com…believe me, I’ve looked…I am an avid admirer of the Shibari bondage artform.

It’s not limited to that though…just pure and honest sick debauchery is had as well, as seen in the following video (which I must admit, after giggling at the first video, I got off on the second video before making this post).

Of course there are also tens of thousands of pictures to enjoy in the site as well. Follow me after the break and check out the gallery! (more…)

Mainstream Misconceptions about BDSM

I came across this image during my travels around the web, and it disturbed me quite a bit. The PETA ad supports BDSM, and recognizes that it is a legitimate thing…what disturbed me was the meant-to-be-funny commentary added by the website making fun of the ad. It just goes to show that there are still a lot of misconceptions about BDSM in mainstream culture…that many people still believe that by a female being a submissive in BDSM play – she is somehow being disrespected. That bothers me quite a bit. I don’t feel disrespected…I feel fulfilled and happy. What should I do…marry some guy, lay on my back after he gets home from work and pretend to love him, while we pop out babies? Would that make me feel respected? I don’t think so.

BDSM has come a long way in mainstream culture – but there is still a long way to go. I don’t advocate shoving it down people’s throats, but nor do I think we deserve to be on the fringe of society…that “weird shit” people think only mentally unstable partake in. Human sexuality is a complex thing – BDSM and a million and one fetishes under that umbrella are deeply entrenched in the human psyche. Everyone has one fetish or another…whether it be breasts, necks, eyes, feet, or being beaten with a cane.

I just don’t understand how consensual play between adults can be deemed disrespectful to either party involved. It just doesn’t make any sense to me. I’m interested to hear what you guys have to say, and what you think about the topic…I’d love for you to post in the comments and let me know what you think.

Entertaining House Guests

Doing chores, and the regular day-to-day of being a lifestyle 24/7 slave is amazingly fulfilling to me. I have purpose, I have goals, I fulfill all Master’s desires – and in turn, it fulfills me. But when Master has guests come over, and inevitably I myself am the entertainment…the life of a slave becomes drastically more interesting! This past weekend Master had several friends over from out of town – all BDSM enthusiasts, and all have come into visit – but never have they all come at once. I can honestly say that I was quite the busy little bitchslave.

So what does this video have to do with this experience? Well – the upperfloor.com is kind of like a 24/7 haven for experiences like I had this weekend. And I figured to go along with this post it’d be nice for you to have some kind of visual representation. Watching some of their videos which I’ve graciously been given, is like watching myself – like if there was a camera in our household this weekend…it would’ve looked something like this. Which to be honest – is so amazingly hot to me. And the amazingly cool thing is that you can watch a lot of it live…or watch the live stuff that’s been archived. All in all a very strong website that does a good job of showcasing intense orgies and BDSM. Go check it out right now!

Anyway on to my experience from this weekend…Master picked them up from the airport late on friday night. I was already hogtied in my cage, in Master’s bedroom – he assumed they would want to pack it in early for the night after a long day of travel. I was awoken by Master and one of his friends, and quickly removed from my cage, at which time Master’s one friend that had come into the room with him admired my hogtie. My toes touching the back of my head impressed him greatly, and I imagine turned him on quite a bit. I think Master got the picture, so he said "enjoy" and patted his friend on the back and walked out of the room. Needless to say my throat got a work-out for the next 15 minutes or so as his cock rammed it hard and deep over and over and over again, it actually made my throat quite sore – but seeing as my toes were touching the back of my head, and my arms firmly below my legs behind my back…I did not have much say in the matter – nor did I want it. Master took advantage of my throat in this position many times, so not only was I used to it, I quite enjoy the position and the hardships that come along with it.

The rest of the evening was unevfentful as I was left with a cummy face on the floor in the room – neglected – until the next morning when Master awoke me at 6AM untied me, but surprisngly didn’t use me as his toilet – I can only assume because my face was still full of dry cum from the throat fucking several hours earlier. He untied me and had me go clean myself up, toss on some latex, and get breakfast started. So off I went and put on my latex maid’s uniform and 6" heels…to start with breakfast. About 10 minutes later the house slave came out of one of the guest bedrooms…looking extremely disheveled. Obviously one (or more) of them had made good use of her. She kneeled down low at my feet (as I do rank higher than her in the household) and asked me if she could please go clean herself up before starting her duties. I agreed and off she went. The rest of the morning was pretty boring, as all Master’s friends were pretty hung over from the late night and they had all emptied their loads into us numerous times so they were satisfied. We all hung out, they talked…we served snacks and served as foot rests, Master showcased a few bondage positions on me – which was fun because he always goes a little further to impress other people, so I was stretched and bent and contorted quite severely – even for me.

One very fun part was when they decided it would be fun to watch myself and the house slave get intimate with each other. It was really fun licking and sucking each other while the men watched, and enjoyed the show…Master looking on, very pleased with our performace…proud of training us as well as he had. Eventually it turned them on enough, that we were then ordered to become suck-slaves again, and we spent the next few hours rotating between all of them, our mouths, throats and necks sore from the constant sucking and throat fucking. I had to give these guys credit though, none of them came…we sucked and sucked – they held back to enjoy it…they were in no rush to cum. We sucked them while they ate dinner, and hung out afterwards. By then they were all quite riled up as you can imagine. The cane came out – and still several days later have big long red welts running across my entire body…marks of pride and obedience to my Master. They laced into me harder than they should’ve…I should’ve called my safe word, but I was beyond determined to make Master proud. The beating felt like it lasted forever…I saw the house slave (who does not undergo such beatings) cringing out of the corner of my eye watching the harassment to my body. I literally could not move after the beating, I was so sore…my face was a mess of makeup from gallons of tears flowing freely down my face.

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Tribute to The Training of O

I was feeling creative, and so I edited this wonderful little video as a tribute to a wonderful website that many of you probably know called Training of O. I’ve spoken about this site a number of times…ages ago, and I just re-found it – and was absolutely delighted that it was still thriving and producing amazing content. While most of you know I prefer porn that focuses more on reality like Master does, this site fulfills the fantasy of 24/7 slavery. They take women and transform them into real slaves…for a short time, but their time there is brutal. They are used as I am used…I can relate to the treatment these girls undergo. It is harsh and unforgiving, and beautifully so!

I definitely recommend trying out this site…I’m quite picky to be honest, but the level of the content that can be found here is unsurpassed by anyone I have found. Again, it’s not real – so if your looking for more documentary, amateur or lifestyle stuff – this probably isn’t for you. But it makes for great viewing and might give you evil Masters and Mistresses around here a few ideas :) So if you want some serious entertainment, beautiful girls, and harsh BDSM while knowing that it is still porn….go check out Training of O – you won’t regret it!