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It Takes Two to Tango

I’ve spoken about Alt.com numerous times already, and for good reason. To feel the full effect and explore the possibilities that BDSM has to offer, it really takes two to tango. Self-bondage is fun (god knows I tied myself up enough) – but to feel truly helplessly bound, or to truly bind someone helplessly, or do whatever cruel perverted things you want to them…it takes two to tango. This forum post by DarkTruth, an avid poster on the Slaveduties.com Forums quoted something I wrote a while back – and it meant a lot to me that he felt as if I was talking to him specifically. It means a lot to me that my blog talks to people. Sure I post plenty of porn, which I think all of us love – but I’m also very proud that there is something that people can take away and think about as well.

From this post:“I know the stigma that comes along with any type of online dating site. But you have to admit that this isn’t just a dating site. Okay so people who use dating sites are sometimes labeled as being desperate or a little crazy. But I mean those prejudices happened because it is relatively easy to ask someone out on a date and there are plenty of things that you can do in your own town that will enable you to potentially find your ‘soul mate’. But with BDSM it is different. There aren’t that many places to go unless you live in a big city that has a large BDSM community. And even then, you have to admit that these communities can be a little cliquish and rather small at times.”

What I said then, still holds true now – and will likely always hold true. BDSM will likely always be on the fringe of society, which is fine, but it does make meeting people quite difficult. People can waste years of their lives hopping from relationship to relationship, hoping someday they’ll find someone kinky – and like DarkTruth said…not only kinky, but into their particular kinks. I know many people who spent years as lonely souls in this situation – and it broke my heart to watch them. While I sat back, so fulfilled, constantly under Master’s thumb – feeling so owned.

I think BDSM dating sites like Alt.com have changed people’s lives for the better – I believe they are a technology in this world that has truly helped people. I think they used to get a bad wrap, like only nerds go on those…but in 2010, internet dating sites are as normal and common as anything! They’ve gotten so much mainstream press, and so many millions and millions of people have used them, that there is no stigma about them anymore – which is truly refreshing. Why go to a meat market bar, and hope to find someone that is willing to kneel at your feet, and accept your beating? Why not just do a search for people who like that in particular? It makes a lot of sense even to a pea-brain slave such as myself!

It takes two to tango…Go Find Your Partner :)

Preggo Instinct!

Being a woman, I can’t help but feel the maternal need pop up once in a while. The need to have a little one grow inside me, completely dependant on me. I’ve dedicated my life to BDSM and being a full-time slave. A slave to a wonderful Master who uses me to my fullest. I get love, lots of love…I get pain, plenty…oh plenty of pain. I appreciate it, I appreciate everything I get!

The lifestyle I live is different than most. And while I wouldn’t change it for the world, and I have no regrets…it isn’t a lifestyle that could ever accomodate having a child. My arms are tied in a reverse prayer position for days at a time. I am constantly beaten and abused, I sleep in a cage I barely fit in, I haven’t walked bare-foot in over a year, I am permanently locked into 6 inch high heels, my mouth and throat is usually filled with a massive penis gag, Master’s urine very rarely goes down the toilet, but instead I happily and lovingly drink every drop…anyway, you get the point. My life isn’t condusive to having a baby.

Today though, I felt that rare maternal instinct…that instinct to have something grow within me, for me to take care of and love. I would of course never bring a child into my life, unless I decided to lead a “normal” lifestyle. Some may think me crazy for my lifestyle, for what I love, and whom I love – but I’m not a looney…I would never even dream to EVER think of bringing a child into this household. It would be wrong. And while there may be some that disagree with me, I think your wrong. BDSM and children DO NOT MIX.

Today I found myself in my cage in the morning as usual, the three padlocks keeping me in my home within a home securely. I found myself half-asleep half dreaming of what it would be like to be a mother. When Master woke up and let me out, and even as he lovingly turned me around as he usually does in the morning, removing the butt-plug and replacing it with his thick cock to have his morning fuck, I dreamed slightly of what it would be like to be a mother. Even as he released his morning piss into my mouth, and even as I did my morning chores, waking up the house slave to start on her chores, and to let the puppy-slave out into the backyard to pee, I thought….what would it be like to be a mother?

My first free moment, I jumped on the computer and started looking for images to satisfy this strange desire…I’ll show you a few of my favorites, and how absolutely beautiful they look. These women are so naturally gorgeous, their big bellies swollen with gorgeous little life. A naked pregnant woman is something to behold…I find it so erotic, and I found my legs hanging off each arm of my chair, one finger rubbing my clit, the other furiously going through the photos.

I just find these women so amazingly erotic. I found an amazing site called Preggolicious.com and the images and video that I watched were just so completely stunning. And I think it actually had the opposite effect, it kind of made me want to get pregnant even more! I suppose everyone has things they want but can never have. Every choice we make ultimately creates our path thereby eliminating possibilities of other things.

I still believe I made the right choice. I don’t think I could live a normal lifestyle. Master had a friend over, and I was pulled out of masturbation session to go serve them lunch and then sit on his friends cock while they spoke, which was nice because I got to have a cock in my pussy, as my ass is reserved for Master alone, he’s not really into BDSM but has been a good friend of Master‘s since they were kids, so he rubbed my breasts softly, and it just made me think more of how it’d be like to be in a normal lifestyle, making love gently and softly, my breasts caressed…Master left the room and his friend took the oppurtunity to cum, which unfortunately was into a condom so I didn’t get to feel the spurt into my cunt, but it was nice to feel it pulsate in my pussy anyway!

Anyway, enough blabbing hehe – I seriously recommend this site, as it has so much stuff to look at and do! And of course, if your more into BDSM, Master’s site is always the best choice!