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Purposely Misbehaving in BDSM

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I’m going to share a little secret with you guys since Master already knows my vices. Sometimes I get bored of being a perfect little slave bitch. Sometimes Master will go two weeks without punishing me because I am doing such a good job and also because he’s just terribly busy. Two weeks without one rough spank or BDSM session! So what do I do to ensure that I get some extra attention whether it be good or bad? I purposely misbehave. Last week, I was ironing Master’s dress shirts because he was going on a weekend business trip. As I was ironing I thought about things that I could do to make him pay more attention to me so I burned his shirts…each and every one. I just held the iron on each of them until there was a beautiful black imprint of the iron on each one. As I was doing it I felt really good about it. I felt like I was releasing some anger and frustration but once I was done hanging them up, (and yes I hung them up to make sure he would only see them once he started to pack his bag), I started to feel scared. I knew Master would be angry with me and after all of his BDSM training, the fear of displeasing him runs strong through to my very bones. But I did it anyways and when he came home that day I didn’t say a word. I waited, never knowing when he was going to see the ruined shirts. Not even knowing whether he would punish me before he left or when he got back. The anxiety alone was almost worth my little misdeed. What I did not expect was my punishment. I misbehaved against him, mischievously, to get some attention but what Master had waiting for me was something I thoroughly did not want.

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BDSM is Humility

Slavery is humiliating. It should be. Through humiliation one can achieve humility – which I believe is a necessary component in being able to be mentally restructured. It’s something I’ve seen in sites like Wasteland – where they take a serious interest in not only the physical but the mental as well. The mental in BDSM I think is just as important as the physical.

This picture reminded me of that. Drooling flowing out of this pretty girl’s mouth – she is humiliated…she has no choice but to accept the cock into her mouth, whether she likes it or not…which she obviously doesn’t, by the look on her face.

It`s sort of like being in a hot room on a hot day without any air conditioning. Your sweating, your uncomfortable…but eventually you kind of just accept the heat – you have no choice but to accept it. And then it stops bugging you so much. It`s the same with sexual slavery. The humiliation drives you crazy, until you accept your place.

There`s very few places I`ve found around the net to watch this actually happen in people, and at the risk of sounding like a broken record, Wasteland is one of those places. They have 14 years worth of BDSM scenes to watch, and I`ve honestly been watching every day for months now, and am nowhere CLOSE to having seen it all. Not only that, but they have a feature film section for you to enjoy…not stuff they made, but it`s like walking into a video store and having the entire porn selection at your fingertips…for…FREE! the best word ever!

Enjoy, my fellow kinksters!