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Trisha Uptown’s BDSM Punishment

Trisha Uptown was voted web babe of the year…she’s not traditionally into BDSM much – which makes this gallery (and the corresponding video inside wasteland.com) all the more exciting. Knowing she really doesn’t like the pain, or the torture, or any of it – for me makes it that much hotter. Each stroke of the cane on my ass is just as painful, but it makes my pussy wet. I wonder if it did for her as well? If not, then the pain is pure pain – without the anestesia that comes along with arousal! Imagine that…well, actually you don’t have to imagine it – you can see it :) Check out Wasteland!

Screams, Wax, Electro Torture, Oh my!

The delightfully demented folk over at Wasteland.com have done it again. They’ve gone and made my pussy drip again! I saw this trailer and HAD to post about it. There is absolutely nothing like being blind folded and tortured. Blindfolds are definitely bit of a “vanilla” thing, but I must say – they add a lot to extreme BDSM play as well. Sight is a huge sense – and when it’s taken away, all of your other senses pickup and become more sensitive to compensate…including touch and feeling. Each stroke of a cane, or electro-stick comes out of the black darkness of your blindness and bites at you without warning. The people over at Wasteland.com seem to be getting more and more perverse as well as more and more cruel…I can’t say that I mind :) Enjoy the trailer!

Of noteworthy mention as well is that Wasteland is the oldest BDSM site on the net. Master is fortunate enough to be friends with the wonderful people over there – and it’s a truly amazing operation. Real BDSM enthusiasts that have merged their passions of BDSM, Kink, and Fetish – with their love of film making. It’s really inspiring, especially considering that even after 15 years of making movies they are still going so strong. What is the most amazing thing in my view though is you get those 15 years of content when you become a member…pretty amazing stuff. Needless to say I’ve spent literally hundreds of hours in there, and I’m no where near finished seeing everything – and they have a whole shibari section with hundreds of galleries, and a whole library…it’s just too damn much hehe. Check out their tour – it’s a piece of art in and of itself!

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Questions & Answers About Me

A slaveduties.com reader by the name of “TheClaimedBeauty” posted a comment in this post and had some questions about myself, Master, and our life in general. I appreciate all of your comments more than you know, and I thought it’d be really nice to answer these questions in a post! Below are the questions that TheClaimedBeauty asked, followed by my responses, I hope you enjoy – and if you have any followup questions, or more questions please post a comment, or post in the forums! The picture above I found suitable because some of the questions that were asked made me think about life without Master…

1. How many years are there between your master and you?

• Master is two years older than I am.

2. Whats your real name? Whats your masters’ real name? Or are you not allowed to give out that kind of info…?

• We have always preferred to keep ourselves anonymous – and to be honest, I haven’t heard my name since the day Master collared me. I don’t even consider that name mine anymore, so for all intents and purposes my name is “slave”, “slut”, “bitch”, “cunt” and “my love” or a variety of other pet names ;)

3. Is there anything you dislike about BDSM in particular? Like, a certain fetish that is popular among the commnity but you dislike it for any reason? Does your master dislike anything?

• This is a bit of a difficult one to answer. I like what I don’t like – does that make sense? No probably not! I’ll explain. Basically, the more pain I feel (I don’t like pain) the more I dislike something I’m forced to do, the more I love it. I am so submissive that it’s not each specific fetish that fills me with lust or joy, it’s the being forced to do it part that keeps me where I am. For example, every morning Master’s cock is inserted into my mouth and he releases his urine into me. I am his toilet – I then give him a nice blowjob. I hate this ritual of being his toilet every morning, but I love it because I am his slave, and this is what he desires. If I had to pick one specific fetish I really dislike it would definitely be watersports…I hate the taste of urine, but I’ve swallowed so much at this point that I’m pretty used to it. I wouldn’t feel sad if I never had to again though (fat chance of that though!)

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Dominating Girls Vs. Boys

I read a post on the blog of Goddess Starla of FemdomBride.com (it’s in her member’s area so I can’t post a link to it) about what she finds the differences are between dominating women vs. men whom have an interest in BDSM – and it prompted me to make a forum post about it – but then I figured it’d be nice to make a post about it! Basically she goes on to say that there are some pretty stark differences between the two. She mentions that men can be much easier to manipulate and handle because if you control their cock and balls – you basically control them as a whole. She keeps her sissy husband in chastity, except when she lets him out to ruin an orgasm or tease him – which allows her that complete and utter control over him 24/7. With females though, she thinks it can be a little different and requires more of a challenge mentally.

I would tend to agree with the statement that women can be more difficult (there are exceptions of course). I’m a bit of a horny slut as many of you know, so I watch a lot of porn – and I always notice that the girls tend to be much more snarky than the boys when being dominated. I myself was never like that – I am a very willing submissive, and never talk-back…especially now after having been so broken into. But I do like to see a girl be broken from a snarky difficult slave, into a prim and properly broken one!

Male slaves though, especially ones like Starla’s sissy husband who are kept in chastity for the vast majority of their life – especially if they have submissive tendencies become moresubmissive the hornier they get. So keeping them in chastity keeps them horny…it’s a vicious circle of domination, one that Starla uses in perfect harmony with her caring and loving attitude towards her beloved sissy husband.

Goddess Starla does go on to say though that while there are stark differences between the two, that there is one huge and very meaningful similarity. She says that you get a lot more out of your slave when they are kept aroused. That is absolutely true and anyone that has ever played with BDSM knows that very very well. A horny slave is a better slave. However this is where the two genders part ways again…it is a lot easier to keep a man horny than it is a woman (in general) – I personally am always horny, so I don’t really count – but in general…it’s much easier to get “user feedback” from men, because it’s pretty easy to see visually when their cock is hard. With women everything gets a little trickier.

So this begs the question, do you prefer a challenging slave, or an immediately obedient slave (whether it be male or female)? Let us know in the comments or in the forum post I already started!

Encased

Encased. Your most crucial senses robbed from you. Lying there without a choice in the world as to what you can do to change your predicament. How do you think Leila feels laying there, being forced to orgasm time and time again, over and over again. She can do nothing to alter her situation at all. She is completely encased – she doesn’t even know where she is. Is it night, or is it day? When will someone come? How much time has passed? These are just a few of the questions that go through your head. They get crazier and crazier the longer you remain encased. Will they come back? Is what you eventually begin asking yourself.

I should know…I’ve been encased for days at a time in my life as a slave. I look at this video and I see myself. And I sit here, my pussy dripping like the whore that I am. Wasteland.com produced this video – I’ve spoken of them many times, as you well know – not only because Master is friends with the film makers – but rather because their videos are far more real, using real people, doing real things as opposed to many other websites I’ve come across. Maybe it’s the fact that I know for a fact that they use real lifestyle people instead of "models" – My pussy doesn’t get wet when I know they are people not into BDSM acting like they are into BDSM…it dries me right up. Maybe thats why Wasteland videos just do it for me.

Here’s some of the outstanding photography that goes along with the video. I actually recently learned that Wasteland’s photographer is a woman – a brilliantly talented woman! In what seems like a "male dominated" world – it’s nice to know there is a female presence there. As a slave, I know well that a female presence helps me to feel more taken care of. Even when I’m getting viciously beaten – but it’s good to know there is someone like that for all the poor (or lucky) girls that find themselves within the walls of Wasteland.

Infernal Bondage

As a slave, bondage is something that is usually pretty commonplace. I find myself in one form of bondage or another on a daily basis. It’s a huge part of my life, but the surprising thing is – even when I’m not in bondage…I think about it. I want to see it. During my computer time I mostly browse the net for the best BDSM stuff I can find. You’d think I’d want to look at flowers and happy things, to take a break from my life. Well – the fact is, I don’t get breaks from this lifestyle – nor do I want any.

This amazing site infernalrestrains.com has some awesome bondage. I love the dirtiness of it. To be perfectly honest, I do get a little bored with the recurring theme you see amongst many sites – the guy in the black jumper, the dirty basement looking thing…It’s all somewhat repetitive in that sense…but if you focus on the bondage, it’s really beautiful.

Servitude

It’s been a long time since I questioned my life. When I first got into this relationship with Master, I would question it often. I would be kneeling there, accepting a vicious beating – by some form of torturous implement…tears streaming down my pretty face, and I would ask myself silently in my head “Why am I doing this?”. Slowly but surely, the questions went away. The more Master abused me, used me, and most importantly – loved me. It may seem like Master is always harsh with me…and, well – he is with me, quite a bit – but he is also very loving. He rarely abuses me, just to abuse me. Like I wrote about in this post – sometime I’m so good of a slave that he can go quite a while without beating me, or torturing me, or punishing me, that I do things to inflict it upon myself.

It’s been a long time since I questioned my life. Last night – I kneeled in front of Master with a cup of coffee (hence the picture I found) and I found myself questioning my life for the first time in a long time. I asked “Why am I doing this? He is all comfortable in his couch, while I kneel here – my knees hurting, simply because he hasn’t felt the need to take his coffee yet, so I must suffer kneeling here. Why am I doing this?” And the remarkable part was that I had the answer…for the first time in my life, when I questioned my life – I had the answer. Maybe it just took all this to get here, to have that answer.

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Leila Made to Watch

There is really nothing more humiliating than watching yourself be tortured. I don’t know what it is but when it comes to BDSM, I find myself really feeling humiliated if I see myself…if I don’t see myself, I can really disconnect and accept the punishment – however, when your made to watch – it all somehow becomes more real and it’s impossible to disconnect. Leila in this gallery from Wasteland.com is made to do just that – and I know exactly how she feels. Impossible to disconnect, impossible to go to subspace or that happy place, while she is abused.

I feel for her, again because I know exactly what she is feeling…but no doubt she probably deserved it – and even if not, she is doing right by her owner by accepting his beating. That is what we are for ultimately…we slaves. We are meant to be used and abused, as crazy as it sounds – thats the only time we feel right, and like we’re in our proper place.